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Sunday, September 15, 2013

Dealing with the Death of a Sibling


Verses: John 11 : 17 - 27

My thoughts about the verses:

Have you ever been where Martha was in this very moment.  Her loved one had past and she was dealing with her own personal struggles.  You try to keep your faith and act like everything is alright. You have accepted that they are better off not dealing with the pain they were going through.  Your heart is breaking.  Yet, you put on that smile and tell everyone I know they are in a much better place. While all you want to do is scream.  To trade places with them because you feel you can't go on without them.

I know I have been there several times.  I think the hardest one happened to me when I was a child. I have had to live with since I was only a year old.  If you have a sibling that dies when they are a baby there is a responsibility that you take on that others will not understand. You feel that there is a reason God didn't take you.  When you make stupid mistakes you feel like you are letting everyone down.  Especially your sibling, in my case little sister, has been dealt a raw deal. You often times feel like a failure if you don't do just all the right things.  If you don't do the best in school, work and play you feel that they died and you have let them down.

See I understand how Martha felt.  Her brother and sister meant the world to her.  The only difference between the two of us is that she was able to be with her brother and see him turn into an awesome man.  She knew that he would want her to be brave to accept that he was in Heaven.  To understand that he knew that he had accepted the Messiah as savior and that he was better off.  She put on that good front and said all the things that she knew her brother would want her to think.  Yet, listen closely to what she says to Jesus.  If you had been here my brother would not have died.  If you ask,  God will do whatever you ask of him.

Sum it up why weren't you here?  Did you not love Lazarus and Mary and me?  How could you let us suffer like this?  Now snap your fingers and bring my brother back to me.  I know I still have moments when I think these things.  Wouldn't the world been better if Kristie, my sister,  had been here?  Haven't I made a mess out of my life?  Can't you just snap your fingers God and let her be here.  Then I realize that God did not take her to punish anyone.  That God did not ever expect me to live up to the expectations that I had set for myself.  That those were things that I had created to deal with the fact that I never had the best friend a girl could ever have a sister.

So here is something important you are here because God wants you here.  People pass from this Earth not because God is punishing anyone or expecting someone to live a different way.  You need to know that if you’re loved one accepted Christ in their heart that they are happy and living with peace and painless in Heaven.  If they were too young to make the decision to take God in their heart, like my little sis, then they are doubly blessed.  Because they did not have to learn what true heartache felt like.  They are living the most wonderful life one that we should be jealous of.  Imagine growing up as an angel instead of growing up here on Earth.

If you have a sibling that has passed and you are wondering what I need to do.  Simple live your life to the fullest.  Don't put things on your platter that are impossible for anyone to accomplish.  You are not your sibling.  You are yourself and you have been given a special gift.  You have been given the gift of life.  It is your option to take Christ in your heart.  Remember if you do that you will one day get to play those games and have those conversations you always dreamed of.

I know a lot of us that have dealt with this take on different task in life.  For example, Elvis always used a small "a" for his middle name.  They said it was because he was leaving it for his twin brother’s capital G.  I know that I have heard them say that my sister should have been a twin.  My Mom always said that she was going to name her first son Michael Ray.  So I often think that he passed away before Kristie was born.  So when I do drag I perform under the name Michael Ray in honor of the twin that never was named.  I have many friends that have done other things.  Yet, here is what I want you to know is that you are not expected by anyone to fulfill the obligations or be the child that passed.  Be blessed that when you get to heaven you will have a sibling that will be able to show you around in a way no one else ever could.

Back to the story,  Martha she was right when she said that he would be raised at the second coming. What I love is Jesus told Martha she wasn't going to have to wait that long.  How amazing to think that if we think on our loved one we can be with them right in the moment.  Remember that one day you can be with them if you put your trust in Jesus.

Prayer:

Dear God we thank you for your presence in our life.  We thank you God for everything that you do each and every day.  We ask that you help us deal with the losses in our life.  Dear God we ask that you help us release the expectations that we have placed on our own lives that are too overwhelming.  Dear Savior we ask that you be with us now and in the future.  In the name of the Holy One we pray.  Amen

Questions:

Have you put expectations on your life that you can never meet?  Have you allowed Jesus to fill you with his presence?  Have you forgiven yourself for the times you haven't lived up to what you thought you should have done?  Have you allowed God to heal you from the losses in your life?  Do you have a sibling that you need to tell that you love them?




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